art and expression get dark sometimes ⚡ we're here for all of it's forms and all of the ways it possesses us, but there are times when the force is totally overwhelming and more like a burden than a blessing
When the thing that saves is actually the thing that shackles
I'll be honest, I feel this way about my work sometimes
I'm both the monkey willing to perform for the crowd and the dynamic goddess who has these creations just pour out of her from heart to hand
We've built this business to a pretty successful place but we're still trying to negotiate work/life balance [especially since the business has been operating out of our 700sqft home for near a decade]
Brandon said the other day that the business has to work for us-- not always the other way around. And I think this is where I've lost the love at times. When I'm chained to routine and grind and I need to feel/hear myself again
I've had the Alice in Chains song "Nutshell" in my head and on my heart a lot lately
If you're going to give it a listen, do the unplugged version-- the lyrics are intense, but Jerry Cantrell's guitar really brings the song to a supportive and uplifting place
Anyway, there is a line that has been on repeat: "if I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead"
Heavy shit, but right-- right?
If we can't be the fullest expressions of ourselves then what the fuck are we doing?
Why not take down the scaffolding that's not truly supporting the strongest versions of ourselves?
I think many of us are scared to live into who we REALLY are
Maybe because we don't want others to see it and be disappointed and then reject the self that's closer to truth (than the version they remember)
But one of the most beautiful things about running this business is knowing that we've become a tiny place where people from ALLLL walks of life can find respite
We're going to celebrate the diversity of your life and your experience because we expect the same extended our way
We are walking contradictions and happy to be messy
Please stay messy with us
There's art and beauty and so much potential just in the way things take shape-- in the time before the put-together manifested version hits your table
