❤a love that lasts forever: 21 years ago today my sweet Papa took his journey to the other side❤

I can remember the last Valentine's Day we celebrated with him. All of us gathered around his bed trying to make things feel normal while knowing his life (our life) was coming to an end. Being on hospice, he asked my mom to go to Hallmark to get everyone gifts and cards since he couldn't. These little figurines are his last gift to me. They are treasured memories from the most caring and compassionate man I knew. A man who comforted me and helped me feel at home everyday of my 12 years with him. Things have not been the same since❤

This year has been the first year that I really got into processing his death. Allowing myself to feel the wake of his loss. Losing Callum opened me up to seeing that the death of our loved ones will keep unveiling and reshaping our lives. I lost a lot of my support when I lost him. I grew up so much when I lost him. I lost part of me when I lost him❤

I remember a few weeks before Callum died I went to a group meditation. During the meditation I followed a rainbow path into the past. At the end of the road was my Grandfather. I watched his face react and respond to me. Joy, bliss, pride, amazement. All because of the love I showered on him. He told me to see myself the way he saw me and I would find endless self love. I've been holding this memory close and I've been thanking him more than ever for saving me, for sending me both my babies, and strengthening my relationships with the people in my life❤

There was immense selflessness in our relationship. Just two souls fully in love with each other and enjoying our time together. I cannot wait to experience this innocence for myself and my life with our baby❤