☁️feeling you Nalo☁️ Wept and wept and wept today. Right here. At Waimanalo. Sandy. Sloppy. Tears flowing. Raw and pounding. All pouring out from a calm, centered, and sacred place. A protected place. My heart, wide open.

This was to be our first trip together, as three, with Callum. There were few things I attached to as steadily as the anticipation of introducing our baby to our other home. I dreamt of our first experience, how different it would be from all the other times, the depth it would bring. Dreamt of carrying baby to the forest, to the ocean, to our family, and to our loveliest love. Wow wow wow, how shit shifts. So many things to mourn.

So, on our aloha day, I sat here and wept. I asked for the pain to bring the lessons. I asked for alchemization and manifestation. Not easy, but nothing about losing our baby has been easy. I asked my guides to remind me more often why this happened. To help me refocus. And then through the tears, with @brandon.of.bjerke by my side, I looked out to the ocean to see a sea turtle floating right in front of us.

Our aumakua responding with just perfect timing 👌 A perfect moment for us to see how beautiful it is to allow yourself to be taken by the waves of life. See, no matter the seas, these turtles just chill. The lesson is: everything will be okay with time. The waves will calm. The clouds will part. You will build your strength under the sun and be ready for another adventure in deep diving. But for now...just float.

So on we float 🌊