Death sweeps in like a massive flood and shifts every single thing She touches. She does not discriminate. She is indifferent to your journey. She doesn't care about your past struggles or those hard-won triumphs-- any of the things you've built. She certainly doesn't give a shit about how "good of a person" you think you are. You are left wrecked in Her wake. You are left ravaged. You are left empty.

Hoping to put all the pieces back together, you come to realize the release Death brings. The pieces are not meant to fit anymore. You are meant to rebuild, repurpose, and grow beyond what you once were. Grow beyond your own limitations-- mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual, cultural. You are meant to love deeper. To care more genuinely. To dig deep and fight to the absolute fucking end. All because you know the greatest lesson of life: Death is what awaits us all. Woman. Man. Elder. Baby. She will come. She is training you for what comes.

And here we are, after our losses, attempting to make sense of the most natural process on the planet.

My lesson over this year: honor Her. Be grateful for Her touch. Understand that you have been touched by grace. By the hand of God. The only way for me to heal is to put our loss in that context.

It hurts. Like hell. It feels. Like hell. But encourage yourself to enter that fire. Keep the knowing in your heart: She is guiding you. She is waking beside you. She is helping you when you fall because this is NOT YOUR TIME. You are meant to go through this fire. You are meant to burn off all the things that do not serve you. You are meant to emerge completely changed. Resurrected. Purified. Unbroken.

You are meant to Birth yourself in Death.

Walk with Death. Speak with Her. She will teach many lessons over this life. She is the most graceful and compassionate of all of our Angels.

So to my Babies: you have only experienced love. The greatest love that I could ever conjure, from the depths of me. In my pain, my sadness, my fight, you experienced it all. My warrior Babies. You both chose the incredible task of holding my hand through this massive shift to help me birth the woman I will become. My loves ❤