trauma travels through families until someone decides to feel it, process it, transmute it
I was at acupuncture last Friday working on this gross mucus situation that has been sticking around for a couple weeks (despite all the herbs, body/energy work, and rest it's being stubborn) and I had transmission of this exact thing
I saw a multi-dimensional staircase-- people ascended and descended, like a mirror reflecting into infinity
I saw an ongoing line of people and their traumas which looked like massively knotted ropes
Some people in my line began to unwind the knots they were given, taking their time with patience, and handed down to the next in line a less fucked up mess
Some people in my line ignored the knots completely, wouldn't even touch it, just kicked it to the next person
Some people in my line added to the knots and the unending freight train
I saw my place on the stair
I saw the person a step above me being too fragile to do the superhero-level work that's required
I saw Bea below me
Shining beacon that she is 🔥 in her I saw my responsibility to my descendants
Then, like a slight of hand, the staircase shifted and I saw myself as my incarnation three lifetimes ago
The man that I was bowled a ball of shit down the staircase to me
Knowing the mission, I picked it up
And then I was brought back into my body
I could feel the areas in my nose, ears, and throat where my mucus was hanging out like stubborn little stalactites
I know the shit ball and the mucus are linked but I'm still unwinding the knots to figure out the why and the what
I guess I just want to say to whoever is still reading... know whatever you're working on is not getting cleaned up in one lifetime
Do your work, of course, but remember the ones descended on the stair will help to continue the unwinding
Maybe at some point you'll choose to come back and clean up some of what you've helped create over lifetimes of can kicking and shit balling
We're not all good and pure, love and light, because this mission is hard. Being human is hard
We ARE either trying or ignoring and at some point we can't hide from the trauma
